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DC heroine meme

5th Dec. 2008 | 07:20 pm
mood: exhaustedexhausted

You Scored as Wonder Woman

Diana is an ambassador from Themyscira, sent to represent her people, the Amazons. She was given life by the Greek Gods, and has a strong connection with them. She values truth and peace above all else. She has a deep respect for all life.

Wonder Woman


Power Girl








Big Barda






Black Canary






Wonder Girl







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ten years now

12th Oct. 2008 | 10:52 pm
location: Laramie, WY
sounds: We Used to Be Friends - The Dandy Warhols

Hello. I'm a person who lives in Laramie, grew up in Laramie, and was in Laramie when the Matt Shepard murder happened. I've been pondering a response for the 10 year anniversary, ever since the New York Times reminded me that the anniversary was coming up.

This MeFi post gave me the push to finally compose a response: Remembering Matthew Shepard | MetaFilter.

long thoughts hereCollapse )

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a poem I actually did write with JanusNode

17th Sep. 2008 | 12:45 am

[Here is a poem I did with JanusNode for my poetry class in Fall of 2003. I Markov-chained almost all of my angsty poems from high school and ran them through JanusNode several times in order to create a poem to fulfill our nonsense poem assignment. So, forgive the gloomy-ness and Dada.]

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poem from January 2003

14th Sep. 2008 | 12:15 am
mood: artisticartistic
sounds: Elephant Gun - Beirut

Edit: My memory is crap. This is a poem I brought to my poetry class, but not one I wrote. It was brought as an inspiration to the class, as we were assigned to bring favorite poems in every week.

I feel like a moron. A moron and a plagiarist. The folder this was in on my computer contains the poems I wrote and the poems I brought in to class as inspiration. Evidently I can't tell the difference. I did do several poems with JanusNode for class and for fun that semester. Just not this one. Here's the link to the page I found this poem on: JanusNode: Poems From The Unknown Unknowing

I was recently asked if I've written anything lately (in the creative rather than purely informative sense of the idea). I haven't really, but here's something from the poetry class I took my freshman year of college. What follows is the entirety of the word processing document I found, complete with an explanation of the process I used to create it.

[The following text was heavily assisted by JanusNode. It was created on a whim as a 'proof of concept', in response to a call from http://www.instantnovelist.com/ for a poem about balance (but never actually submitted, since it turned out that they only accept entries from AOL members!). The four step process used to create it can be used to try to produce a poem about any topic at all. The first step is to gather together a bunch of texts about the chosen topic. In this case, the texts were taken from the WWW, using a search engine search on 'balance'. More carefully selected inputs texts can deliver better results. The second step is to create a Markov file of the texts gathered in step 1. The third step is to chain the Markov file from step 2, and (optionally) other selected Markov files. In this case, pre-existing Markov files on the war in Kosovo and the highschool murders in Colorado were selected in the hopes they would resonate in an interesting manner with the texts on balance. Finally, interesting lines from the output are selected, and the resultant (rather short) text is Markov-chained again. Text culled from this output can be used to make the final product. In this case, that selection was eecummingsfied, and then edited by a human being to produce the final text. Although the final text reflects substantial human intervention by editing, the title, general themes, and the structure of most of the individual lines here (including the fine phrase 'when emotions have a disordered bullet...') are all JanusNode's own work.]

The Stabilizing Effects of Perception.

Let your ears hear only
what does not
destroy the world.

When emotions have
a disordered bullet,
I believe in balance.

Balance is
not achieved by soldiers
measuring out the world
in machined straight lines
with steady gaze and goals.

Balance is
not an hour
with your checkbook,
not an hour
spent casually shooting
others dead.

Balance is
found in wild experience;
from letting our bodies go forth,
shifting on uneven surfaces;
forging their own crooked paths.

Let the world scream;
Let the disordered bullets rain
on lockers and pews;
Let the wild vertigo

Let your eyes see only
what does not
destroy the world.

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21st Jun. 2008 | 10:51 am
mood: creativecreative

this was a response to a post by riotgeek, but I like it enough to put it here, too.

There's vocation and then there's avocation. Rather than thinking of avocation as a "hobby," I like the definition that describes it as a "calling." I think it's perfectly reasonable desire to want to have a job that uses skills that you enjoy and have a talent for. Yes, the world needs clerks and janitors, but having some form of creativity and personal expression in a job gives you motivation for pride in craftsmanship and a genuine joy in your field. As long as you're dedicating a lot of time and energy to something, you may as well enjoy it and know that it uses the parts of you that are the strongest and most vibrant.

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counseling for the not dying

16th Jun. 2008 | 10:16 pm
location: Jackson, MN
mood: exhaustedexhausted

My grandmother had a stroke last Sunday afternoon. Afterwards she's had mini-stroke aftershocks called "TIA"s [I keep thinking "thanks in advance"]. We left Laramie for Jackson, Minnesota that Monday, got to Columbus, Nebraska and then stopped at a auto place because the power steering had gone out on my mom's car. It was fixed at about 11 am on Tuesday and we got to the hospital in Jackson that afternoon.

Thursday Grandma was diagnosed with a bladder infection, which affected her health and mood significantly. Once her antibiotics started working and the infection started to retreat, she was more mentally and emotionally together.

The stroke/TIAs affected her vocabulary, so communication with her is an interesting experience. We can tell that she knows what she is talking about and is not confused about what she is saying or who any of us are. However, the words come out pretty jumbled sometimes, so it takes patience and time to decode what she is saying. Friday she started telling Mom (Diane) and my aunt Carolyn that they were good kids. Then she proceeded to tell stories about the times that her three daughters were troublesome. She started with the time that Marion, the oldest, climbed to the top of the windmill (she was two, Grandma was pregnant with Mom and Carolyn was still a baby) and an incident when the three of them ruined a 25 pound sack of sugar. We were all laughing in her room that morning after hearing those stories.

Grandma's condition varies based on the time of day and how tired she is. When my cousins and their children, Bennett and Cate, came down to visit on Saturday and Sunday morning, Grandma was in high spirits but pretty exhausted after our short visits in the hospital. She was especially happy to see Bennett and Cate. Bennett was especially kind and sweet, making sure to give Grandma several hugs and letting her know that he loves her. My uncle Roger let them pick flowers from his garden to give to her, and those flowers and some irises Roger cut earlier have brought her much joy. She has also enjoyed the cards people have sent, asking us to bring her magnifying glass so she could see them more clearly. We have also relayed all or your kind thoughts and wishes to her, and she is grateful and glad to hear of them.

Grandma has not felt like eating much. She is not refusing to eat, she just has trouble swallowing — saying that something is wrong with her innards that makes it painful to swallow and also makes her afraid of stomach upset. She tries to eat as much as she can, saying that the nurses are so nice and the food is good, but she can't eat as much as she is given.

My mom and aunt are sort of pessimists, so they have been certain several times that my Grandmother has said she wants to die and is trying to starve herself to death. I don't believe either is true. Grandma has said that she wishes that she had died quickly rather than having deteriorating health, but she is the type who just deals with what she is given with the resources that she has. While she was confused from the infection she was pretty pessimistic, but since then she has her same demeanor, mood, and sense of humor that has been her normal state as long as I've known her. My mom and aunt are very stressed out right now, though, and understandably so. I just wish they wouldn't stress themselves out more on top of this already tough situation.

Grandma has repeated many times that she has lived a long and wonderful life and that she feels especially lucky to have been able to know her great-grandchildren, Cate and Bennett. It moves me to tears (with a smile) when she says these things. Thursday evening Grandma asked me to find a poem to read to her. With Google's help we finally found the right quote. She told me it helped her when I read it to her. I think it's beautiful.

Look to this day!
For it is life, the very life of life,
In its brief course
Lie all the verities and realities of your existence
The bliss of growth
The glory of action
The splendor of beauty.

For yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But today well lived makes every yesterday
A dream of happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.

Look well, therefore, to this day!
Such is the salutation of the dawn.
— Kālidāsa, “Salutation to the Dawn”

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accent meme

25th May. 2008 | 10:16 am

[inspired by riotgeek, but a slightly different version of the same quiz from languagehat]

What American accent do you have? (Best version so far)


Western is kind of neutral, but not quite since it's still possible to tell where you`re from. So you might not actually be from the West (but you probably are). If you really want to sound "neutral," learn how to say "stock" and "stalk" differently.

Personality Test Results

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this is where we went wrong

31st Mar. 2008 | 01:09 pm
mood: contemplativeenlightened

“The central—and not very surprising—conclusion that emerges from the documentary and historical record is that the U.S. international and security policy, rooted in the structure of power in the domestic society, has as its primary goal the preservation of what we might call the ‘Fifth Freedom,’ understood crudely but with a fair degree of accuracy as the freedom to rob, to exploit and dominate, to undertake any course of action to ensure that existing privilege is protected and advanced.”
The Culture of Terrorism, 1998 Noam Chomsky

[context: Four Freedoms, Fifth Freedom @ Wikipedia]

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29th Mar. 2008 | 01:09 am

There are escalators in Wyoming.

Because I'm a nerd, I've decided to do a Wyoming escalator census. Watch for updates here.

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not mythical

28th Mar. 2008 | 01:23 am
mood: amusedamused

"Wyoming exists, but it chooses to remain anonymous."
- Lord Kinbote, as part of this discussion: There are no Escalators in Wyoming. | MetaFilter

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Word Zombie Day

22nd Mar. 2008 | 11:06 pm

Happy Easter! [yes, I'm posting early, but it's so you can read this first thing]

In honor of this fantastic (and even more improbable than Christmas in terms of miraculous events) holiday, I am planning on watching Jesus Christ Superstar followed by Shaun of the Dead. And maybe Star Wars (since it's hdgotham's tradition and I want to see the original trilogy a second time).

My family, in honor of Wyoming and Passover and not at all as a questionable bonus religious cannibalism ritual, is having leg of lamb for lunch. Mmmmmmm lamb.

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just in time for Easter

20th Mar. 2008 | 10:58 am
sounds: Siamese Triplets - Colcannon

Amazon.com: Fresh Whole Rabbit

look at the "Customers Who Bought Items Like This Also Bought" as well as the customer images and reviews.
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about time for superficial quiz results

20th Mar. 2008 | 10:16 am
sounds: Skipper - Stark Effect

now to watch a movie he's in, I suppose
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last public post too emo

17th Mar. 2008 | 01:39 am

Orange juice and a nap always makes me feel better. That and Project Vote Smart has alleviated my biennial democratic depression. It's hard to be for or against candidates who are exactly the same. So I stayed home and did homework during the primary caucus, while humming "The Caucus Race" from Disney's Alice in Wonderland.

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I want to do this

14th Mar. 2008 | 01:51 pm
sounds: Beck

Because Laramie needs a party on wheels:

A Taste of Colombia Rolls Through New York’s Streets - New York Times
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please let me pretend just a little bit longer

7th Mar. 2008 | 03:26 am

I have worked very hard on maintaining my youthful hope and innocence. With determination and effort one can slow the inevitable erosion. While cynicism and compromise are necessary for practical and philosophical reasons, being permanently stuck in those states is something that strikes me as terribly sad.

This makes the state of America especially heartbreaking. Things been screwed up in ways beyond what I ever imagined was possible — in both scale and diversity. Worse than that, massive objections to major, obvious, and preventable fuckups did not stop those in power from proceeding anyway. And I have used my hope and idealism as fuel to keep voting and conversing with others and voicing my opinion to those in power. It feels that this, too, has had all the impact of pissing in the sea.

I feel so incredibly powerless right now, especially politically, at a time when my vote is actually weighted due to an alignment of statistical improbability and timing. For the only time in my life, registered as a Democratic voter in Wyoming in a system that still uses caucuses and an Electoral College, my opinion on the Presidential election counts. Things are that close and all the things aligned precisely enough. And it's terrible. Because, while maybe the media and the candidates are listening for these few days, in the end the caucus is non-binding and so whatever I say can be ignored anyway. And in the winner-takes-all electoral system Wyoming is overwhelmingly Republican. Meaning that the one time my opinion makes a whit of difference in a Presidential election, it's just a suggestion and even crueler because that tantalizing idea of having my vote, for once, have equivalent value to someone's vote in Iowa or Florida or Ohio . . .

I want so much to believe that an individual has power in a vote, but that only works if lots of people take the time, thought, and effort to make their vote as well. It also depends on the system not being rigged and bizarrely complex.

I want so much to use this idealism and hope to make life better for more people than just me. Taking care of oneself is survival. Taking care of oneself and helping others do the same for themselves . . . creating something positive that goes beyond replacing what one has consumed . . . this is something I find great value in. I am so lucky to have what I have in my life, and I am so grateful and so sad because things are still hard and others don't have what I have been lucky enough to receive. And I think that government exists to serve the needs of its people, and being involved in politics will help it more effectively meet the needs of myself and others.

And every time since I have been able to vote that I have hoped and tried and participated

and cared

it breaks my heart again.

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mental gym membership

23rd Feb. 2008 | 01:40 pm

» ADHD and Memory Problems - Psych Central News

» ADHD Computer Program Improves Attention - Psych Central News

So I've added the Who Has The Biggest Brain? Facebook application (link to application page: Facebook | Who Has The Biggest Brain?).

I'm also considering getting a Nintendo DS or DS Lite so I can get BrainAge, Big Brain Academy, and/or other games that help increase working memory skills (and Mario Kart, because it's just fun).

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political campaign goes more meta than usual

19th Feb. 2008 | 12:20 am
mood: feeling the hope and optimism die minute by minute

I heard NPR talking about the plagiarism kerfuffle between Clinton and Obama. Oratory quality is now an issue. Huh. And I was kind of excited about the possibility of politicians and the media taking a closer look at things like health care and the economy. Evidently that discussion isn't going to happen this week.

NPR's coverage (really good coverage of plagiarism and political speeches in general):
Democratic Candidates Have a War of Words

Overview with links to video of the speeches discussed (from the Times Online in the UK):
Hillary Clinton hits Barack Obama with plagiarism allegation - Times

This editorial references other instances of "recycled" speech elements in political
speeches, as well as embedding YouTube clips of the "Just Words" passage:
US Elections - Times Online - WBLG: Words matter - but they're not

Warning: Politics may induce slight nausea and disillusionment. My personal remedy is muppets:
Muppets - Mahna

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deadbeat Congresspersons

12th Feb. 2008 | 09:54 pm
mood: cynicalcynical

[this post inspired by this post]

It makes me grumpy when members of Congress skip votes. (Although not showing up is Barbara Cubin's finest quality.)

I'm really ticked off about what the campaign for president has turned into. It started way too early. It has been impacted way too much by empty hype and cosmetics. The media, even PBS and NPR, is covering it like a sporting event. Actual positions and plans are being ignored or completely left out.

Is it me, or is the presidential election becoming more shallow than the average reality show?

Politics are starting to make me want to cry myself to sleep.

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You are beautiful

28th Jan. 2008 | 12:16 pm

You are beautiful
Originally uploaded by advice to sink in slowly.

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Be yourself

28th Jan. 2008 | 11:54 am

Be yourself
Originally uploaded by advice to sink in slowly.
This poster makes me happy. A lovely illustration and sentiment.

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25th Jan. 2008 | 12:58 am

It feels a little weird to be sad about the death of a celebrity. People care enough about public figures they'll never meet that stalking Britney Spears is a multi-million dollar industry. That's freaky. But I don't feel like apologizing for being sad about the loss of Heath Ledger. I'm sad when anyone in my sphere of awareness dies, especially when it's sudden and unexpected, leaving things unfinished and possibilities unexplored.

I had this big feeling that the best was yet to come for Heath Ledger, so his death seems like some cruel anti-climax. And his death has the tragedy of losing a decent person, father, and member of society. Whether the loss is of a famous person or of any person in any community, it always leaves a vacancy that feels like a wound.

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motivation and attitude

2nd Jan. 2008 | 10:12 pm

In order for a person to work (beyond autonomic responses), they have to have some motivation to do so. Whether it's survival, the fulfilling of basic needs, or achieving the wackiest goals ever conceived, an individual has to desire it to do it.

Sometimes motivation comes from fear, or avoidance of pain, or one of those types of things. Sometimes motivation comes from interest and excitement. Frequently, there's a mixture of all sorts of pains and pleasures that create motivation.

Motivations can be intellectual or emotional. Both are important.

Attitude is the emotional side of motivation. It is an essential part of modulating motivation. Getting your reasoning and your feelings in step increases motivation. Confusion and uncertainty use energy. If you can decrease or eliminate those elements, you can use that energy elsewhere -- maybe on achieving a goal.

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2nd Jan. 2008 | 09:46 pm

Work is required for everything. If energy is expended, work is being done. Waking up requires effort, even if you're great at doing it.

Going to the Moon requires substantially more effort, so much that it takes lots of work by lots of people to make it possible. But it is possible, with that work. If you personally cannot do all the work yourself, then you work to get the necessary help.

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disability and creativity

2nd Jan. 2008 | 09:41 pm

Disability depends on the definition. It doesn't mean that someone can't achieve a goal, it just means that they can't do it in a certain way.

Helen Keller may not have been able to see with her eyes or hear with her ears, but she could still learn about her surroundings and communicate with the world. Nowadays, people who are similarly limited (or not) can less metaphorically and more literally get "impossible" senses. Getting the information is the goal, and hacking the method of delivery may be more complicated, but it's not less real.

Being creative with the definition of an ability can help with the creative solution to what was once considered a disability.

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ability and the limitations thereof

2nd Jan. 2008 | 09:24 pm

Ability has fewer limits than we usually think. There are exceptions to every rule (although, this rule itself may have exceptions). The laws of physics have exceptions.

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achieving goals

2nd Jan. 2008 | 09:22 pm

To reach a goal, you need the ability to do it and the desire to do it. Then you have to work to do it.

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talent and effort

2nd Jan. 2008 | 09:18 pm

Just because someone has some sort of in-born ability or disability doesn't mean that they can't meet or exceed goals that require x ability with some creativity and hard work. Attitude is important so a person will put forth the energy that it takes to reach a goal, no matter how easy or hard that is for them.

Therefore, a person can be interested in finding out more about their talents or challenges while knowing that hard work and a good attitude are also essential to achieving anything.

[posted as a comment here: How to Change the World: How to Not Choke]

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yapt (yet another personality test)

2nd Jan. 2008 | 04:06 am

Click to view my Personality Profile page

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31st Dec. 2007 | 06:24 pm

"There's nothing like trying to explain something to someone else to make you think about the subject seriously and thoroughly yourself."
~ Melodie Neal

[source: Deep Litter, also on my quoteblog]

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